Another funeral

Errands are run. Car is gassed. Water and snacks are already in the car. I'll be going to bed soon after some straightening up of the house. Up at 5 and we should leave for Las Animas between 6 or 6:30. The weather is not cooperating. Rain and snow until 9 tomorrow morning according to the news. Tomorrow is Peter's funeral.

Too many memories resurface. There were no goodbyes for Michelle or for Peter. Does it matter? Yes! No! Receiving the news was like being sucker punched - didn't see that one coming. It knocks the wind out of the sail. It is interesting how physically drained one becomes for something that is so emotional. Last Saturday was a fog. The rest of the week was normal but still draining. Sunday we visited with Jeannie and the family. It was a long drive but worth it. I get mad when people say "but it is such a long way/drive."

We all agreed that we had the reassurance that Peter was in Heaven, praising and glorifying God. That we can celebrate. But the sudden loss is what is difficult. For Peter's sake I rejoice for him that his death was sudden, quick. I would hate to see him linger for a long time, not that I would want anyone to linger and suffer a long time. Peter was a doer, get it done - yet he meditated on God's Word. To see him linger would hurt more.

Peter was one that affected everyone's life he got involved with. The French have the word "terrois" - for the wine country and how the soil and weather, water or lack of water, and so many other things affects the flavor of the grapes for the wine. The same grapes in one area produce a different wine than those in another area. Peter left his terrois on everyone he met or worked with. Their lives were changed by his affect on them. God put him where He needed him.

It is hard to say goodbye. Why does it hurt so bad when we know what is waiting on the other side of death - eternal life. There is joy now but it is not complete - joy comes in the mourning.

Forgive my ramblings as I work thru my grief. And in all truth, "It Is Well With My Soul!"

To God Be The Glory!